Kezia Antholyka

Honesty.

2011-09-04T01:23:00.002+07:00

Some of you are going to be startled by the title.

Some of you are going to be startled by my sudden return.

HONESTY

I find it hard to open up to people and say exactly what i want to say

In the end I buried them and say "Nothing :)"

Go screenshot and post it on tumblr.

"I find it hard for me to be honest in tumblr. To let out my opinions. To write freely.

I find it hard to write posts, because to me, tumblr is for reblogging.

I find it weird to have people who follow me for the reblogs, read my personal thoughts

I find it weird to open up to the people I once held near. "

Call me whatever you like.

I don't like it.

I don't like NOT being able to say things

I don't like LETTING things go by

But then again, who am I?

Right?

Who am I, to judge something?

To give opinions to things that I'm not even a part of?

They tell you to be honest, and then they Judge you.

Isn't it unfair?

How you can judge me but I can't judge you?

I am truly sorry for my honest opinion, you may begin judging me

Isn't it unfair?

How you blame me for everything that's happened to you, but I can't blame you for everything that's happened to me?

I can. But I didn't

Not even now.

This is just an opinion.

I'm just being Honest.

I don't get how people don't appreciate honesty.

I was honest to you.

was.

Not anymore.

To Dearest You whom I Love very much :)

2009-09-28T11:01:00.002+07:00

HEY YOU :D

(whoever "you" are)

I would like you to immediately leave this page

cos I'm deserting it :D

thank you for reading this post

SUPER thanks for reading my past few blogs

Jolly Good thanks for reading most of this month's posts

I love you if you've read my blog from tha beginning till the end

movin on to tumblr

:( :( :(

2009-09-19T15:32:00.003+07:00

Howdy', 'sup?
Hey, hows things?
Hello, how are you?
Yo, sssssupp?
Halo, apakabar?
Alohaa, how're ya doing?
Ni hao, ni hao ma?

我不会伤害您。

Don't worry that its not good enough, for evryone else to hear. cos they don't have to :p

2009-09-19T15:31:00.001+07:00

Morons can't speak, but I wanted them to

2009-08-25T18:02:00.002+07:00

what's with you and silent-liness (not even a word)
why do you have to make things so DIFFICULT!
UGH

why can't things be like they were in preschool

and WHY am I yelling abstract things that made no sense at ALL!

I know that I skipped it
and I shouldn't have done that

but GOSH! please make up your mind

f.y.i you can't leave me dangling on a telephone wire forever ming

Dying To Say

2009-08-24T18:46:00.002+07:00

10 Things that I've been ITCHING to tell you

I FRIGGEN HATE YOU
YOU ARE A SENSELESS PERSON WITH NO GUTS
YOU ARE THE BIGGEST FREAK ON EARTH
YOU ARE EITHER BLIND OR DEAF
I FRIGGEN HATE YOU
I FRIGGEN MISS YOU
I FRIGGEN HATE YOU FOR NOT TALKIN
I WISHED THAT YOU WERE HERE
I LOATHE YOU
and
i don't think that I could ever forget about everything that we've been through

THERE. happy?

Failed to see, failed to understand

2009-08-13T17:28:00.002+07:00

Look.

I'll show you what you failed to see

and I'll prove it.

I hereby promise. TILL THE END OF MY LIFE

I'll prove it somehow.

IF YOU DARE TO HURT ONE FURR! OF HER BODY. I'll kill you

you want out? GO. GO AWAY

I'll cook my own meals, wash my own clothes, clean my own dishes

as long as you STAY AWAY from her

you can make my dad take ALL of my allowance.

ya sure you can.

but you can NEVER take her away

because if you did, I'll KILL YOU

I'll prove it to you,

i knew that this is irrational

I'm not bluffing

I can. and I WILL

just you see.

She's more to me than what you see

IM SORRY FOR YOU

IM SORRY THAT YOU HAVE TO GO THROUGH ALL THIS STRESS

IM SORRY THAT YOU WANTED MY BEST FRIEND TO DIE

IM SORRY THAT YOU CURSED ME

IM SORRY THAT YOU FAILED TO NOTICE THE SIN

THE SIN OF KILLING THE MOCKINGBIRD

Flaws

2009-08-06T17:55:00.002+07:00

being a RETARDED GAY is your flaw. not mine

sitting here, hoping for the Impossible, is mine.

flaws flaws flaws

even a flawless person has flaws. right?

Impression

2009-08-06T17:41:00.002+07:00

Soo, here's the thing

1st Impression :

-DARN HUGE! I MEAN LOOK AT THAT BUILDING! -_-

-DARN CROWDED. yeahh got no space to run.

-DARN PREPPY. everything iss soo like "that brand is this" and "that brand is that"

-DARN scary .. i mean, paintings with eyes all over the hallway? .. uhuh scary

-DARN FOOLISH. 12 for a cup of milo? get the hell out

-DARN ATTENTIVE. teacher talks, kids raised their hands, wow so 1st grade

-DARN TIRING. 7th floor to the 3rd floor then to the 8th. hell yeah

-DARN killing me. homeworks. like hell

Pointy point. I rly do missed my lil old school, small. true. but i love it

well life's what you make it. soo I'll try to make this one rock .. somehow

Techno Geek Hell Yeahh

2009-07-29T11:14:00.003+07:00

Helllo Tech Class :D

Bored, no twitting in class

(what the hell)

then, was thinking about that stupid box

can't get it out of my head

Aww geez. think I'm cursed. DARN YOU stupid box

Fascinating

2009-07-27T21:45:00.004+07:00

i saw you

I saw you twirling a box full of colors

twisting, spinning, twirling, poking

you were paying attention to class

(obviously i was't)

but your hands were still twisting

i find that fascinating

soo fast that I couldn't even keep track of the little red boxes

it was like red,green,blue,yellow,red,red,red

twirling and twirling

then by looking at your face i could tell that your head is somewhere else

where?

I saw you

wonder if you saw me

ugh. can't get it out of my head.

may this not be "another" curse upon me. amen

to see your face again. to laugh together like we use to. to be there instead of here. to do nothing but have fun.i want that for my birthday.

2009-07-22T19:42:00.000+07:00

Inspiring ;)

2009-07-13T17:27:00.002+07:00

dorkhead + scene = !@#!@!F!@C%@!

LOL

so yeaah the dorkheads rly did pull up the scene

must be rly proud of yourself huh?

but i have to admit, that was pretty awesome
NOOOOOT

aww geepers, i feel rly sorry for you.

but still, it was WAAY funny LOLOLOL

itsokay though. i find your words very Inspiring ;)

aww i heart you, somewhat, LOL guess that rat won't eat your cheese huh? :|

ps. being ambitious is great. and you know nothing about it ;)

Do Nothing Day

2009-07-11T19:33:00.004+07:00

DUN DUN DUN DUUUN

Soo, today was exciting :D

I woke up at about 11, and then i thought "I'm not going to do anything today"

soo I turned on my computer, sitting there like an idiot

doing nothing but typing

type type type

then i got bored, soo I played the Sims 3

BUT THEN I GOT BORED-ER

Soo I watched a couple of movies.

well do nothing day was fun (i think)

Today's List Of Activities:

- Woke Up
- Computer Time
- Watch Movies with Brothers:

- Lilo and Stitch
- Barbie Thumbelina ( i know, wth)
- Coraline
- Toys Story

- Eat
- Back to Computer and Do nothing some more

I caught a couple of morals, like DO NOT TRUST THE OTHER MOTHER or like BEING SMALL IS POWERFUL, which is soo whateverrr HA

but DO NOTHING DAY is somewhat good for the soul

look on the bright side, I get to spend time with the brothers :D

OH btw, Tiny Tim is tha BOMB. LOL HAPPY THE END OF SUMMER YO :D

I know that SPONGEBOB is always there for ME :D

2009-07-10T22:49:00.002+07:00

Hello my dear friends!
Well, here I am on bloggers at last,
And it feels so wonderful to be here with you on my blue blue day

Spongebob made this wonderful song.
this song brought me life.
i was feeling soo blue :(
BUT THEN I HEARD SOMETHING ON THE TV.
NOW, I FEEL WONDERFUL

I LOVE YOU SPONGEBOB
AND PATRICK
AND SQUIDS

LOLOLOL

the song
LIVING IN A SUNLIGHT, LOVING IN THE MOONLIGHT

I'm so happy, ha-ha! Happy and lucky me
I just got my way, living every day
I don't worry, worrying don't agree
Things that bother you, never bother me

Things that bother you never bother me
I feel happy and fine, ha-ha!
Living in the sunlight, loving in the moonlight,
Having a wonderful time!

Haven't got a lot, I don't need a lot
Coffee's only a dime!
Living in the sunlight, loving in the moonlight,
Having a wonderful time!

Just take it from me I'm just as free as any daughter,
I do what I like, just when I like, and how I love it!

I'm right here to stay, when I'm old and gray
I'll be right in my prime,
Living in the sunlight, loving in the moonlight,
Having a wonderful time!

Oh-ho-ho!

Google It. Limewire it. Download it. and BE HAPPY :D

When My Phone Starts to Beep

2009-07-07T19:52:00.002+07:00

basically, I AM BORED LOLOL

to get to the point

have you (fellow bloggers) felt like you really really REALLY want to tell the strory
couse that might relieve the stress?

but never had the GUTS to do it because its waaay too private?

URGH, soo i came up with a couple of ideas

a. FAKE BLOG : make a fake blog that no one knows and you can write EVERYTHING there

b. BUY A DIARY: yes, i rly want to have my own diary, but what if someone found out. and *gulps* reads it?

c. CALL SOMEONE: this is not bad. but be careful the person that you called might not be as sweet as they look.

d. RUN AROUND IN CIRCLES : this'll work. right? wrong? :(

URGH BORERERED

New

2009-07-06T22:45:00.002+07:00

new.

okay, so kezia is going on an adventure.

where life is HELL

new.

honestly, i know nothing about the new school

idk where i'm going to wait for the classes.

idk where my classes are going to be

idk which in FLOOR my classes are going to be.

idk where to buy food.

idk how much the food cost.

idk what to wear.

idk how to act.

idk what to do.

idk who I'm going to be friends with.

idk who I'm going to hang out with.

idk how the book is going to look like.

idk what i'll learn.

idk anyone there.

idk

I don't know

things felt soo new.

soo NEW.

and its not the "good" New

new.

Prolouge In the End of The School Year

2009-06-19T18:10:00.003+07:00

Every ending has its own beginning

but i just don't get why things have to end now?

why now?

well through whatever that we've been through

It has been the GREATEST 3 years of my life

well, 2 1/2 years ..

but my point is

I've never rly felt at home when I'm literary at home

its true that we are small

and its true that we don't have our own building (peace out)

but We are one BIG happy family

and NOBODY would EVER understand how it feels to be in the family

untill you're in it :D

soo for those who dislikes us

You can ALWAYS say bad things about us

You can MOCK us in front of our face

but you will NEVER ever understand that we are not just some students in some stupid ole school

we are ONE family

and i somewhat hate to see me leave -___-

Countable

2009-06-06T20:05:00.002+07:00

Countable Days

Countable hours

Countable Minutes

in 5 days

in 120 hours

in 7200 Minutes

Ohana means Family

Family means, no one gets left behind

I <3 INTERNET

2009-06-03T19:02:00.002+07:00

OOH OOH OOH

okay okay, I'm super excited!

well imagine 3 weeks with no internet (at home)

imagine bringing your BIG 'OLE LAPTOP everydaay to school

well at least now, me and my iMac are best friends again

yeay

Readers read and Writers write :)

Live and Let Die

2009-05-29T14:10:00.003+07:00

Sometimes, don't you think that its better if she's dead?

IT IS BETTER

but! she's not dead -_-

for the Allison in my life is still roaming free

still here, ace, still here

hatred |ˈhātrid|

noun

intense dislike or ill will : racial hatred | her murderous hatred of her sister.

die 1 |dī|verb ( dying |ˈdīi ng |) [ intrans. ]1 (of a person, animal, or plant) stop living : she died of cancer | the sheepdied from the heat | [ trans. ] the king died a violent death.• ( die for) be killed for (a cause) : they were prepared to die for their country.

kill 1 |kil|verb [ trans. ]1 cause the death of (a person, animal, or other living thing) : her father was killed in a car crash | [ intrans. ] a robber armed with a shotgun who kills in cold blood.

3 different words with indifferent meanings in my heart

And She's Back w/ More books

2009-05-29T11:06:00.003+07:00

soo, kany was lending me this whole "pretty little liars" series.

it's an awsome book. liked it. love it.

soo i'd figure that i should buy the series for my collection

(I mean, its rude to borrow ppls stuffs all the time)

SOO i asked my dad to buy me the Wicked book, and he turned out buying the WRONG one

well, the wicked that he gave me isn't a bad book.

in fact, he bought me the whole series of 4 books

I can't just say "DADDY I DONT WANT THIS ONE! ITS THE WRONG BOOK! FETCH ME THE WICKED!"

nope. to your disappointment, I'm

not that kind of girl -_-

its nice of him though, I'm finally reading again

A novel of 538 pages doesn't look soo bad

its been a week since i stopped reading

(or ran out of books)

and i missed the smell of books LOL

the clingy paper, the little printed text

and the mystery hidden beneath it

readers read and writers write :)

Prologue in the End of May

2009-05-29T11:00:00.004+07:00

it's been awhile since my last post

and of course, a lot of things happened

good things bad things

lots of things -_-

Well, we might as well enjoy life

in every condition

For every ending, is a beginning of a new story

Feeling Super Duper Super

2009-05-17T20:32:00.002+07:00

OFFICIALLY MINE AT 11.04 TODAY

now i got all that i need to be happy lol

and guess what? :P

Curiosity

2009-05-11T13:10:00.006+07:00

frequently asked questions : why? how? when? why?

Curiosity Kills. You're dying to know aren't you? So do I

Talking about Curiosity. some ppl

find it very annoying to wonder about some other ppls business and fusses. Its annoying when a person asked you soo many questions in one paragraph, Annoying when a person stares at something for soo long. Annoying when you're near a curio

us person.

Being curious is not a crime. a curious person makes things rhyme.

A curious person wants to know, If the chicken and ducks are afraid of the crow.

A curious person wonders in fear, but dying to know what they're about to hear.

A curious person cannot stop, they'll search and they'll think 'till they found out.

Being curious is not a crime, they wont stop until its their time.

But being curious is always my thing.

to think about unrationals and why things go that way. to ask you "HOW THE HELL?" three times a day. to ask "I wonder if the rain is goin to stay". to find out why Z is mad at Ace. to google weird sickness and google their cures. to read crime stories and flickr-ed murder scenes. to find out if the truth is really the truth. Annoying? maybe

But once a curious person filled their minds, they move on to greater things that they can find.

Once the answers are finally found, they smiled and jumped and talk in great sounds.

When the pages are filled and nothing more can be said, they ran out the door for new things awaits.

But once a curious person filled their minds, they're drowned to an addiction made by their minds.

I'm dying to know, but i never knew.

Curiosity kills. They drown you to death. for because of curiosity, so many are dead. Cos when you're curious you can never stop. Dying to know till your dying for real. They'll do anything to know, and just to know, they won't tell,

they won't brag, they just want to know. but what if? what if, they didnt get what they want?

A curious person drowns themselves to death, just to know, just to know.

Curiosity is not a crime

Curiosity kills

Curiosity is what made me live

Jokingly Joking

2009-05-06T18:50:00.002+07:00

When does Friday came before Wednesday?

in the dictionary

What do you call a man who saves 15 times a day?

a barber

What does every girl have that she can always count on?

fingers

What invention allows you to see through walls?

the window

Why was the maths book sad?

because it has too many problems

keep smiling :)

Plurkies

2009-05-06T18:35:00.002+07:00

ELLO WORLD :)

http://www.plurk.com/keziaantholyka

i'd be thrilled if you'd be-friend my plurk

i heart you soo much

Random : last 3 plurks

Kezia hopes that kanya did good

Kezia thinks that I'm dumb lol

Kezia feels brave :)

super dimwitted and unimportant, but i DID post it anyways lol :]

Friday Afternoon Song

2009-05-06T13:05:00.002+07:00

i dedicate this lovely song to Audrey Angelica Siregar, who is getting married this friday

DUN DUN DUN DUN

*have a HAPPY funday friday afternoon

Jus' can't wait to get out of my school!

to go to Pim, and see a movie too

you must be QUICK cos BONDAN is coming soon

tie up your shoes, bring out that HAT

bring bring some snacks!

and put it all inside you BAG

and wrap them TIGHT!

and don't forget the green umbrella

(back to *)

Aliens can't speak, but I wanted them to

2009-05-05T18:54:00.002+07:00

If I had my own pigtunia, she'd be soo bored and she'd say "get a life! you moron!"
-_- find a new one 'ya dimwitt"

you'll love him kok pigtunia, he's great. but rather stupid
i jus thought that he's way better than leaving my dangling like this
you moron -_-

enough said :)

Rain and the Voice in my Head

2009-05-01T11:44:00.002+07:00

There was a little daughter
Who dreams of a slaughter
but then she woke up screaming

She was crying after
But she didn't feel better
then she heard someone coming

A voice of an angel
as soft as the wind
was heard and she was wondering

"who art thou? where shall thou come?"
but the angel stood there singing

There was a little daughter
who was sang by the angel
and she ended up sleeping

The 'Dork' is the new 'Cool'

2009-05-01T11:37:00.005+07:00

My bangs .. are gone

Now, I'm as dorky as i can get

well? :)

(screw my dimwitted expression -_-)

Attempts to Kill Her

2009-04-27T21:42:00.004+07:00

don't take me wrong. but this ain't real. or is it? :]

ATTEMPTS TO KILL HER

LETS KILL HER, ANY PLANS?

PLAN.A ATTACK FROM BEHIND

PLAN.B DISTRACT HER USING SONGS

PLAN.C PUT "EXTRA SPICE" ON HER FOOD

PLAN.D PUT WASSABI ON HER GLASSES

PLAN.E SNEEZE ON HER, THEN RUN!

PLAN.F TELL HER THAT SHE AINT GOT NO DESTINY

PLAN.G SING CHRISTMAS CAROL, WHILE SHE SLEEPS

PLAN.H MAKE HER BOYFRIEND WEAR A DRESS

PLAN.I TELL HER THAT WE'RE CRAZY, THEN RUN!

PLAN.J DRAMATICALLY SCREAM, THEN FAINT

PLAN.K CALL 911, BLAME IT ON HER

PLAN.L LOOK AT HER CHILDHOOD PICS, AND LAUGH

PLAN.M EAT HER COOKIE IN FRONT OF HER, AND SAY HA HA!

PLAN.N CALL HER MOM, AND SAY NYEH NYEH!

PLAN.O STEP ON HER FEET, SAY VROOM VROOM, THEN RUN!

PLAN.P PET HER CALENDER, AND SAY "SHE NEVER FEEDS YOU, WHAT AN EVIL WOMAN"

PLAN.Q PUT GRANPA'S NOSE HAIR ON HER HAIR

PLAN.R SAY "SCHBOUVNER, RNATERPOOZY! WAA WAAW!" THEN RUN!

PLAN.S MAKE AN APPOINTMENT WITH THE PRESIDENT, AND BLAME IT ON HER

PLAN.T CALL HER AND SAY "SPONGEBOB WANTS TO BE YOUR WIFE *SCREAM*" THEN HANG UP

PLAN.U UTTERLY DESTROY HER LAPTOP, AND SAY "MY TURTLE ATE MY MOM"

PLAN.V PICK YOUR NOSE AND DO AN EVIL LAUGH IN FRONT OF HER BOYFRIEND! (BLAME IT ON HER)

PLAN.W SAY "I'LL EAT YOU ALIIIIVEEE! RUUN! NOW!" THEN RUN!

PLAN.X X-RAY HER MATH BOOK, AND PROVE TO HER THAT THERE'S NOTHING IN IT

PLAN.Y YELL "LOOKS LIKE YOUR EYES RAN OUT OF RUBBER!"

PLAN.Z GO TO THE ZOO PULL THE LION'S TAIL, AND BLAME HER

and yes, i lost my mind. i forgot to give it a map. thats why its lost -__-

Guys, listen to me. This will work, occasionally. If you love me, then it'll work. If you love Kanya, then you should take a good care of the boy next to you (kany knows the attempts to kill 'The Him')

Nuisance II

2009-04-27T17:41:00.002+07:00

QUIT HELPING HIM!
I'LL EAT YOU ALIVE!

you knew that i hated him
why are you still helping him?
thought you were my friend
if you keep doin this
I'm goin to hate you both

And I don't want to do that
You guys are the only ppl that i know here
(AND YES, ppl means friends)
so be a friend, and quit helpin him

and YOU, you knew that i hate you -_-
so quit makin him do stuffs for you
ESPECIALLY THE STUFFS THAT I HATE
he's your friend
and he's doin it because YOU ASKED FOR IT
so STOP ASKING FOR IT

just be a friend, and let me live my life

:D

Schkbouvner, Playing with Words

2009-04-24T11:11:00.005+07:00

i have no idea what Schkbouvner means

saying random words without knowing what it meant

that is soo you

telling me stuffs that you weren't even sure about

thats wack and somewhat dissapointing

i mean, expecting that you really mean it, but you ddnt

'cos you ddnt even know WHAT that means

Ashglamunts and Ontranozious

i had no hell idea

Rashgrovaz and Yakerzoozle

I'm soo much better in this thing

Cos i ddnt use obviouswords-that-made-others-think-that-you-mean-it

BUT YOU DDNT!

Rantherspanove, I've had enough

Feeling crazy for no reason. Feel like shoutin, and sayin words that ddnt even exist. Life is hell. enjoy it :D

2009-04-23T19:55:00.002+07:00

Growing

2009-04-18T11:48:00.004+07:00

My Little Princess is now my Bestest friend who understands
From the round little sleepy head to the run-about little dog

I can't call you Puppy anymore
Junie is the bestest Dog that I could ever asked for

one and only :D

Tall Tales : Good Friday

2009-04-10T22:45:00.004+07:00

Woke up at 7, took a shower, dressed in black, and waited for the rest of the fam to get ready.

yeaah its Good Friday ---rather confused on wether i should put a SMILEY or a SAD-ey, lets just go with none

I IM-ed Leslie, and IM IM IM IM until everyone's ready

said "bye leslie, gotta go to church" -__-

then its church time

Church's seat is full, doesn't matter though

'cause I'll be sitting in the CHOIR seat (DUN DUN DUUUN)

Choir was my one way ticket to Funworld

well I think singing is better than rotting in church and checkin the clock every second

well today's Choir was ... fun

despite all the high notes, missing beats, and slanky tunes :DD

the thing is, i sit next to a badbreathedbreathingdragon

which is GREAT

and she wants me to share a book, since she left hers at home

dang, i think i almost puked -___-

I gave her mine, and i had to share a book with my Mom

thats somewhat better than breathing near her while her mouth is wide open

i'd rather run to mommmyy

but the rest was greater than great

I got home. I ate lunch. I sat. I played with my dog Juunie

and spent the rest of the day watching TV

story's somewhat dimwitted, but whoocaaaareees! LOL

Cliché III

2009-04-10T22:25:00.003+07:00

Things don't go the way you wanted

But things happen

"Soo okay, I drive all the way here to chinatown, dress myself in curtains, kiss a lobster, bail a friend out of jail, and jump into the dumpster JUST to say that i like jake, well, its not perfect, but i don't want it to change" - Addie Singer

Empty

2009-04-05T15:40:00.003+07:00

No More
Absolutely Positively Sure
You don't need Jerks :]
life goes on Kez :]

(yes, im talking to myself LOL, whattheheck life's better this way)

Liar Liar Pants on Fire

2009-03-31T20:58:00.002+07:00

may i need to remind you that i'm not that stupid
shaawh comm'on
Your lies are gettin stupider and stupider
Think of a better lie
and left out the obvious "im lying" sign

gile ya lu, sampe gua caps nih yg gede hahaha biar BACA!

Game Up

2009-03-29T13:59:00.002+07:00

THE SIMS 3! EEEEEEEEP
dundurudundundundundundn
BANG!

THE SIMS 3 IS HITTIN TOWN IN JUNE 3RD FOLKS!

with lotsa cool feats!

can't wait can't wait can't wait

WAIT!
it's about 50$ each .. which means
Rp. ............
sdjlhknsjdtbuaerbuaoyekrbhquearvojbsjya

SAVE UP!
SIMS 3 IS WORTHED!
hell yeah

The Small Can Tell

2009-03-29T13:09:00.003+07:00

Junie's b'day was yesterday (YEAY HER) soo i was thinking of doin a story about her, lol, this'll be bad (especially if IM the one who's writing it) but wth. read :]

JUNIPER VON PRINCESS

Ugh. Fine. what’s so great about a family of humans? They’ll take the cute big energetic ones. Plus I'm black. They'll probably take those Maltese or that Pom next door.
Yeah, unlike my brother and sisters, I’m not so exited in meeting this so-called-Human Family. I’m the smallest one in my pack. Every-dog else is HUGE. They wont pick me, so what’s the use of jumping around like stupid idiots?

Might … as .. well ….. sleep …………..

“Hoooow cuuuuuteee”, huh? Who was that? Black haired, she’s the .. Oh damm! she’s hurting my neck, OW OUCH! Hey GIRL! watch it! This huge girl took me by the neck, and she hugged me soo tight. Aaargh. But .. I kinda like her jacket.. its warm and fuzzy .. oh noo .. dozing .. off ..

“AAAAW sheeee’s sleeping” gyaaagh! can’t she see that I’m sleeping? Uugh keep your voice down .

“Here you hold her, im goin to check out the maltese”
yeaah, that figures, go take those white dogs, and whoawhoahwoaaa! don’t swing me like that!

“Kez, this one’s cuteeeee”said the brown haired one, okay now the brown haired Girl is wringing my neck!

“But daaaad, that one’s cuteer,” said Kez, that’s her name? right?

“I know, but its black, and …… small” okay fat one talking. Guess he’s the dad. Whoa wait, they’re talking about me.

“But daad, she’s rarely amazing, I mean, look at her” hell yeah, I’m a rare species in this country :] and im cute :] WAIT A SECCOND! She’s picking me over those other dogs?

“Verry weeeell, I’ll talk with the breeder” said fatso, can’t believe it. I’m I’m I’m ADOPTED! WHOAA YEAAH, HELL YEAAH I FEEL LIKE JUMPING! And RUNNING!

“Well cutie, I’ll pick you up in 2 weeks, be ready girl” said kez, ooh im ready allright! Yes, 2 weeks . sweet. SOO LOONG SUCKERS! I'm a family pet :]

to be continued :]

Paramour V

2009-03-24T21:04:00.002+07:00

how am I to believe you if you look like you're joking out a serious matter
how am I to say anything if you just stood there saying nothing
how am I to believe?

i feel really stupid right now
you creeepy piece of chicken
you chicken!
lol

shalalalalala

Truth Schmuths

2009-03-18T20:39:00.003+07:00

I ate a gallon of ice cream. and i regret it. i gain 5 lbs.

Ultra obsessive over grades. and i just got a C, y know what, im goin to tell you the story

there's a guy in my class thats also over obsessive over grades. yeah. soo i was takin this english test. which was like hell, and i got a C, and HE got a B. soo i lost. and i was pissed. soo i was relying on my math test (SCREW GRAMMAR) and apparently i got a 95 and he got a perfect score. SO MY AVERAGE WENT DOWN, WHILE HIS ARE RISING UP. dang. major dang

I hate ants, they are icky in and tiny

I hate snakes. well afraid of'em actually :]

I hate shocking colors, i'll go with pales

I hate shiny days

I kinda dislike my full name

I'm sad somehow

I'm super glad somehow

I just ate chicken

and I wrote this truthfully

:] :]

Tall Tale of Hell

2009-03-11T20:16:00.002+07:00

soo yeah, im doin stories now. you wouldnt be interested in reading it, well whats the use of writing ordinary days of my life, i mean, its not like those ppls care about what i wrote ( no offense to those that cared, if theres any)

here goes .

Wowee! Mom just bought the tickets for Java Jazz. EEP! Jason Mraz! i was -literary- jumping on the spot when my mom said that we're REALLY REALLY going to go. yes. hell yes :]

but three days later my dad said that i can't go. DANG.odnfjlfngjsdnfg. he got this "RELIGIOUS" thing that he assigned for me and my fam. i mean, whats HIS problem? be religous, and let your daugther see Jason!

Useless, i ended up being on the bus for 25 hours. 25! hell. plain darn hell. sitting there. sleeping there. on that spot. that seat. ugh it aint pretty. we made a couple of stops. I was tryin to make a couple of calls, BUT! i can't call Jakarta. f.y.i I was in KEDIRI! yeah so im pissed off. and i felt like dying

well. fancy this, i don't feel like typin' the rest of the story. i really appreciate those that has read this far.

I heart you :]

there goes my lame story LOL

An Open Door

2009-03-05T20:40:00.003+07:00

hell yeah. i've Decided

Decide

2009-03-05T19:32:00.002+07:00

well i dont know.
i dont
i just dont
i NEED to know
help
please help
i really really don't know
and i gotta decide by tomorrow morning
geez, thats great -___-

Diaily Bread

2009-03-04T21:43:00.002+07:00

what i do

i woke up
i prepared myself for school
i go to school
i sleep in most classes
i went home
i turn on my computer
i ruin my eyes by playing computer
i go to sleep

and i woke up

the same old thing
my definition of "as usual"

Greetings from Mars :]

2009-03-04T18:57:00.003+07:00

If anyone could feel my heart with joy and happiness
and cast away all of my loneliness
and always here beside me when I am down
And never let myself in a frown

Its you yeah its you my friends who can make it all come true
Its you yes thats true, a friend in need is a friend indeed

when you're around i wrap myself in a stupid laugh

A.A.S - LOUD, good listener, funny somehow

when you're around i danced and swayed and jump around

A.P.P.I- FAST, capable of handling a clumsy person(like me), athlethic

when you're around i scream and sing out strong and loud

K.P.W - disconnected, but truthful (TOO TRUTHFUL sometimes haha)

when you're around you light the bulb inside my head

G.F - new girl LOL, genius -___-

not dimwitted, but true :] :] :]

And i beg to them saying, "Please .. "

2009-03-02T18:55:00.004+07:00

I know. I know that you like me soo much
BUT I HATE YOU
LEAVE ME ALONE

okay fine, so I'm being unfair. but
STAY OUT
your creeping little tiny freaky weird feet, i hate it

YOU SABOTAGED MY KEYBOARD
THEN YOU GOT INTO MY PIANO

YOU ATE MY DOG'S FOOD
you bit her :[

YOU BIT ME TOO!
i can barely touch my keyboard.
everytime i press enter, you came out to say hi
luckily, your death was fast and easy
and you dont have to feel any pain
SQUASH GOES THE ANTS!

Pleaaase purty purty purty pleaaase. with rainbows and dumb animals :]

Random Emotions

2009-02-28T22:03:00.003+07:00

you're hot and you're cold - Kate Perry

i just dont get it. i mean, how your mind works. how? sudden yes and sudden no. you're sad then you're happy. blissful then bored.smile then frown. WHAT? ugh. i just dont get it. you wont talk, but suddenly you LAUGH. so hard. if i ddnt know anybetter, i might say that you're crazy -__-

I'm strange and i like it, just the way i am - The Buzz on Maggie

or am i the freak? the freaky girl who wonders about other's mind. well, i CURIOUSLY wonder over everthing -____- why am i short? why is the sky blue? why is orange my fave color? why are you staring at my blog? why did i even bother to create this blog? why did the person who created the site, created it? why am i asking things? why?

In the Jungle the mighty Jungle - The Lion King

hey. did you know? Sitar came from India. yea lame topic. so be it. LOL. after choir practice (and before) me and my big Bro fiddled with the Keyboard. gunshots. Barbie says Hi! (lol my personal fave). Rituals. Bells. and, hmmmffpph *holds* SITARS LOL! -__- yeaa i'm talkin nonesense. well it made me laugh soo hard. but yea you we'rent there, soo .. yeah .

well, HELL with all of this. I'm just bored. MAJOR bored. -__-

Cliché II

2009-02-27T17:43:00.002+07:00

Miracles happen

to take it, or not is our choice

once you skipped it

there's no go-backs

its gone

Miracles happen, Once in a while :] - disney

Perplexity II

2009-02-26T22:29:00.001+07:00

To choose between an apple or an orange?
Apple

To choose between the Sky or the Ground?
Sky

To choose between Coke and Milk?
Milk

To choose between Cats and Dogs?
Dogs

To choose between Reading or Chatting?
no offense. reading -__-

To choose between Green and Purple?
Orange

To choose between Dying or Run?

To choose between the Future and the Present?

To choose between my Heart or my Future?

my Happiness or my Life?

my needs or my wants?

my point of living or my point of surviving?

to move or to stay?

why? why? why?

the world asks so many question . yet . not all of it, can be answered

Dimwitted but true. shaaah

Climax

2009-02-23T20:40:00.002+07:00

oh how i LOVE climax

Im lovin' it more and more each hour

Climax. dang

Awsomely Bored

2009-02-23T19:50:00.004+07:00

I have a joke :]

A man named B (lets name him B) is working in a bar
its 3 pm and the bar is darn empty
suddenly a man showed up (named X) and asked for a drink

B : hey. uhm shouldnt guys in ties like you be at work at this time of day?
X : well i guess im a little diffrent :]
B : oh. uhm what do you do?
X : im a Logic Thinker
B : uh, whats that?
X : oo, its kinda hard to explain, uhm let me put it this way. do you have an aquarium?
B : yeah i do
X : that means you have fish :]
B : yeaa duhh . i love my fish
X : which means that you cared for animals. soo, you must care about little childrens too?
B : oh yess, i love my little daughter
X : well, if you have a daughter that means you have a wife
B : ya sure i do, and she's pretty too
X : you got a pretty wife, that means your not a dumbhead :]
B : yeaaa i guess soo, whooaa you're good :]
X : that! is what i do, well, my time is up, i gotta go :]
B : yea nice meetin ya

B had a friend named Y, and Y asked B

Y: hey, who's the guy who just left?
B : oo he's a logic thinker
Y : wth it that?
B : uhmm its kinda hard to explain. let me put it this way. do you own an aquarium?
Y : heck no!
B : THAT MEANS YOU'RE A DUMBHEAD!!

LOL. get it? no? :[
well.. this kill my boredom. oh well. life goes on. shaaaah

Cliché

2009-02-23T19:21:00.003+07:00

when the world turns it's back on you

you turn your back to the world

when a person lies to you

you lie to that person

when a person thinks that your stupid

that person is actually the stupid one

because they think that you're stupid

Hakunamatata - Timone and Pumba

Your Little Manuever

2009-02-23T19:02:00.003+07:00

I get it :]

I finally get it :]

i mean, im not that stupid

you know that i'll figure this out sooner or later

well, i did

its not that hard anyways

I'll just play along

I'll make this game soo Interesting

and You'll know

that i Love to play

soo, Im playing along

I too, can be dramatic

This game, kills my boredom

I'm soo into this

HAHA

uhm I'm not that stupid :]

think twice before you say something

I can switch whatever that you say back to you

I got the genes from both of my parents

haha

soo yeah, I'm lovin it :]

Kezia may be stupid, but she isn't dumb . kezia knows :]

The Ruse

2009-02-21T21:27:00.004+07:00

Prolouge:

whatever . im still on her side. you CAN try to bring her down. but you'll never hurt her. as long as im here. i'll be there for her. forever.
you'll never get away with this. She's way to nice
you're WAY to evil. you, JERK!

Essentials:

Allysson Caith. 14 goin on 15. loves debating . Jen's best friend
Zachary Norrington. 15 goin on 16. secretly hates Jenny, his little sister
Jeniffer Norrington. 14 goin on 15. a heroic girl. athletic

Point:

[clear chat history]

8:55pm Zack Norrings

She cant do nothin. and im goin to ruin her life

8:55pm Alice Caith

well, she CAN breathe, eat, talk -__-

8:55pm Zack Norrings

and IF you're goin to warn her, she'll never believe you

8:55pm Alice Caith

yea FINE .
i am goin to warn her, and if she thinks im lying. well fine

8:55pm Zack Norrings

She cant trust a person that easily, she needs proof

and you're a girl
what can you do?

8:55pm Alice Caith
i have the proof :]:]

i can eat, sleep, talk, chat :]

8:56pm Zack Norrings

ass. all that you can do is flirt with guys

what? this is goin to be your proof? pathethic

8:56pm Alice Caith

well. if the guy is somewhat hot and worthed. why not?
LOL

8:56pm Zack Norrings

this conversation? your proof?
pathethic

8:56pm Alice Caith

?

8:57pm Zack Norrings

you flirty b tch

8:57pm Alice Caith

LOL

my definition of "flirtin" is diffrent

haha

8:57pm Zack Norrings

Jenny got her own nick name

"Our Hero"
she always gets the blame. HA

8:59pm Zack Norrings

she sacrificed herself for her family

8:59pm Alice Caith

"Hero" .. she is my hero

8:59pm Zack Norrings

THATS WHY I HATE HER!

8:59pm Alice Caith

that meaans

she's a nice person

whawhawhwhawhaat?

why'd you hate her

she's like, super awsome and kind

9:00pm Zack Norrings

she saved grandma once, and she splits her hand . i hate her
she thinks she's modest and all. HAH
pathethic

9:00pm Alice Caith

well, she is nice -__-

why cant you accept the fact, that she is a her0?

9:00pm Zack Norrings

she saved my lil bro once. and he became obsessive of her. ugh

i hate it when she PRETENDS to ve the hero

THAT TITLE IS FOR GUYS. LIKE ME

9:01pm Alice Caith

well, if everybody thinks like you

cleopatra'll be burnt alive! lol

-_____-

9:02pm Zack Norrings

she saved me from those alley kids. hate them. and she ended up in hospital .
and i got blamed for it

cih

9:03pm Alice Caith

what did you do? why'd they ambush you if you done nothing wrong?

9:03pm Zack Norrings

none of your bussines. freak

9:03pm Alice Caith

whoa. and you got saved by a girl. whaat a gentleman, LOL

well im only asking

curious :]:]

9:03pm Zack Norrings

curious freak

cih
9:04pm Alice Caith

well is it forbidden or what?

-___-

9:04pm Zack Norrings

girls cant know about my bussines ..

9:05pm Alice Caith

why not?

9:07pm Zack Norrings

BECOUSE I SAID SO

denouement:

Alice told no one. and kept it for herself.
Zack secretly hated Jenny
Jenny is home. tired. and she spent the rest of the day, chatting and talking to
her Beloved brother Zack

Alice is dangling in the middle. dilemma
She knew that Jenny would never believe her.
She knew that she would be "the freak who lies" .. again
and she'll lose Jenny, if she told her about this

no one'll believe her. no one

Holocaust

2009-02-16T17:39:00.003+07:00

MAJOR HOLOCAUST!

soo i'm applying at this one school.
apparently- i passed their math test ( never knew how. haha)
And they scheduled my interview for 25th of march
BUT! the headmaster said, the sooner the better
SOO MY INTERVIEW IS RESCHEDULED TO TOMORROW

dang

no no no. the sooner the worse. man.
the school DID mention (on the phone) that they dont want to lose someone like me
uhm afraid im not really into that school, and i'll run off as soon as im accepted
HAHA, someone like me? you mean dimiwtted forgetful and annoying? haha

major dilemma -___-

i gotta check my accent. ;]

to be continued :]

Phenomenal

2009-02-14T23:24:00.002+07:00

I've been in the same class as you are for 12 years . awkward.
I've lived for 14 1/2 years. and i spent more than half of my life at school
more than 80% of my life is spent with you .

dang

Fate. HA. no way

Disfigured Obnoxious Beast

2009-02-13T21:23:00.002+07:00

Oh ants. how i hate you

Oh ants. how icky is your tiny feet

Oh ants. how you love being around me

Oh ants. how i hate being around you

Oh ants. how you stole my candy

Oh ants. how you sabotaged my bag

it made me hate you more and more each day

Vest-Pocket Canine

2009-02-10T20:52:00.004+07:00

my vest-pocket canine :]
Yorkishire Terrier : Pure Breed :]
Juniper Von Princess
28 04 2008

i love her
she understands :]

Dimwitted

2009-02-10T20:24:00.004+07:00

im not giving my life away for some sort of thing that i dont even like. i never protested when you gave me some thing to do, i try to do it full-hearted. i obeyed. i did miss a lot of things. but i let it go. peacefully. well, this cant keep happening to me. hate it. you dont know how hard it is. to accept everything. to always say yes. UGH. being a goody•two•shoes is hard. but well. theres nothing that i can do about it. can never protest. cry? ha. try.

Perplexity

2009-02-06T11:24:00.002+07:00

Life is like a rolling wheel

Life is like a mountain

Life is like a song

Life is like a computer game

Life is like a puzzle

Life is like a see-saw

Life is like a book

Life is like a dream

Life is the fate thats destined for you

well to me, life is like shit . dimwitted. but true. shaaaaah -__-

School Alone

2009-02-02T20:06:00.002+07:00

a once in a lifetime chance to be stupid, and alone at school.

I sat there, waiting numb. dumb. dimwitted. waiting for my brother to come.

Kania left me on this living hell, alone with the chicken LOL peace

I had suffered hell. i HAD to wait for my brother which was SUPPOSED to be back at 6'o clock
and I sat there like a dumb person asking stupid questions UNTILL he had GOT to go home TOO!
oh dammn. i was -litterary- on my knees. BEGGING "please please , you're noot THAT evil aren't you?" well he DID wait for 5 minutes. but HELL! omg he DID leave me alone in this hell
and the lights suddenly went on and off. and i decided to wait in the car. talking to the phone and blaming everybody who left me here alone.

you guys are plain darn evil !

soo yeah. interesting day.

Paramour IV

2009-01-31T16:36:00.005+07:00

after a tiring day off hell, you brought sunshine to my place

your voice rings and your words are stuck

but nevertheless i thank you for this

for being there when i needed you to

for staying up late for me even when you're soo sleepy

for not complaining even when i puked at your name (jk)

for saying "idontcareaboutthat" when i mention her name

for giving the right advice when i needed it

for promising things that i've been hoping for

and for saying the thing that i can never say

and without you, idk what to do

it looks like i'm saying thanks to my mom! but im not HA

i owe him a lot. a WHOLE lot

dimwitted, weird, but somehow true . shaaaah -_-

Do•Fun

2009-01-31T16:16:00.006+07:00

me, kania, alda, ode, glory, mr kim, and my juniors went to dufan (Dunia Fantasy) last friday

it was soo fun

Kicir Kicir : (pic. 5)

pusing banget. 360 degrees diputer. oh shit :]

but its fun

Bogel: (pic.4)

SERU, best best best. me and alda shared a ball. and we spin like hamsters HAHA

Istana Boneka:

creepy but yeah, sorta fun. uhm cute dollies?

Mini Coaster: (pic.3)

lumayan lah. its nothing haha

Tornado:

uhm not as dizzying as the Kicir Kicir. but over-all its fun

Arung Jeram: (pics.2 and 1)

WET WET WET! soaked wet

TIRING BUT FUN!

Deserted Island Of Hell

2009-01-31T15:33:00.004+07:00

I've Probably told some of you about this. i hate it.

my dad sent me to this place

and i hate it

retreat was supposed to be fun

but this! is whatever

Rally Point : 2/5 review

school ends at 3.00 and i gotta be at the rally point at 3.30, plus i haven't pack. rush rush. and i pick every wearable clothes from my closet and stump it to my luggage. and when i got there. t everybody (except my brother and listi, of course) was a stranger.

Getting There : -100/5 review

luckily i was in the same bus as my brother. the road went on and on and onnn. untill the road narrowed into an alley. and thats the ONLY way to the destination. so the bus had to squeeze through it. and then, they decided to let us walk. and we DID WALK about 2 km WITH THE LUGGAGE in our hands. fine. that was very fine.

Got There : 3/5 review

when we -finally- got there, the place was, well good enough. a bit dirty but, life goes on.

and the first session begins

Jungle Walk : 1/5 review

lumayan seru (mendadak indo) i took pictures of the waterfall, and others, well this was amusing. BUT for the fact that it was very tiring -_- ugh ugh ugh

and my over all review was -11/5

comments : i'll join this kind of thing again. tapi 3 years later. kalo udh nyambung ngomongnya

Nuisance

2009-01-20T17:55:00.003+07:00

again again and again
im getting bored with this

never ending huh?
guess so, idk

never stop huh?
uhm, maybe thats to much

never see things in a different way huh?
you should try

life is unfair , live with it darling

you've done enough damage to my life, and I've done enough to yours.

face it. we're even :]

Random Babbles

2009-01-19T18:14:00.004+07:00

With: Alda
Location: Music Room
Babble: "Lo dengerin gue ga sih?"
Babbles Back: "ngg"
Description: ngomong sendiri

With: Jessica
Location: Dining Room
Babbles Back: "Knp kak? ya terserah aku dong"
Babble: " Lo gausah gitu juga dong"
Description: ade kelas ngocol

With: Ode
Location: Math Class
Babble: " love letter buat matthew HAHA"
Babbles Back: "special"
Description: prank letters, nmuhahahaha (evil)

With: Albert
Location: Math Class
Babble: " Khusus buat lo dari gw sama ode :]"
Babbles Back: "haa? "
Description: nyebarin itu prank letter haha

With: Istrinya Laoshi
Location: Chinese
Babble: " what the hell is P1?"
Babbles Back: "no no no shu be chenge-a"
Description: salah ngetik

With: Ode
Location: Chinese
Babble: " Senam Dulu sono"
Babbles Back: "saaaaaatu. dua"
Description: org stres

With: Dea
Location: Chinese
Babble: " De, itu temen lo knp?"
Babbles Back: "Ngg ngerti.."
Description: Tasha sedang mengikuti suara ayam berkokok

With: Mas Agus The OB
Location: Tangga
Babbles Back: "bsmlsmdlkgmsdfsfdsf"
Babble: " ...?"
Description: OB nanya nanya hal gajelas

With: Grade Nine Girls
Location: Lab
Babble: " I saw things.. "
Babbles Back: "seriuus?"
Description: Scary talk

With: Laurensia
Location: Locker
Babble: "ikut ret ret dooong"
Babbles Back: "ngg tau deh kak bisa apa ngg"
Description: begging loren supaya nenemin gw ikut retret

With: Albert
Location: Lab
Babble: "Tumben pada waras"
Babbles Back: "biasa lah, hari pertama"
Description: tumben nya anak anak cowo ngg main laptop di kelas fisika

With: Steven
Location: Lab
Babble: "Gw semprot lu"
Babbles Back: "Gw semprot balik"
Description: Jewish talk. an eye for an eye

randoms.extremely bored. shaaaah -__-

Supremacy of Success

2009-01-17T01:40:00.005+07:00

I BEAT GLORIA ON CHESS.

I BEAT HER!

HELL YEAH!

okaaay you get my point. im soo thrilled happy jubilant. whatever.

I won, never in my life did i BEAT someone my own size in a chess game

Secret :]

2009-01-12T16:03:00.002+07:00

I got a SECRET. can i keep IT though?

uhm idk

Paramour III

2009-01-11T21:42:00.002+07:00

I knew. but i still don't believe it.
You said it. thats unbelievable.
I heard it. But i pretend to be deaf
You wrote it. but i kicked it away

never knew why. but suddenly it feels like i shouldn't know. but i knew :)

fate. hmmm. naaah

Homiees :)

2009-01-11T15:05:00.004+07:00

[Kezi, Noni, Lidia]

So so so, My friends went over to my house
and OMG! they-are-soo-small HAHA
I never knew that they are still soo soo small
awwwww but i DID miss them somehow :]

Paramour II

2009-01-10T18:48:00.002+07:00

I know that you don't, but i don't care

I know that she does, but i don't care

I know that you wont, but i don't care

I know that she will, but i don't care

You know that I can't, but i don't care

You know that you can't, but i don't care

You know that she can, but i don't care

You know about this, but i don't care

all i care about is that

You know that I know, and I know that You know

I know that you do, and You Know that i do

and theres nothing that we can do about it.

High School

2009-01-09T10:21:00.003+07:00

WANTED! HIGH SCHOOL!

ENGLISH SPEAKING SCHOOL

AFFORDABLE TUITION

GREAT IN MUSICS

HAS ITS OWN BUILDING

Finding a high school is somewhat harder than finding my paramour, but but but, more or less, High School is a necessity if i want to go to a music college.

I haven't decide about which school that i should go to. But, staying in this school is merely possible. i need to find a High School thats right and destined for me. a place where i can finish the rest of my School life in peace.

well well well. still blank. clueless. dimwitted -___-

a little help?

The Sims 2, i hate you :)

2009-01-08T16:31:00.005+07:00

Preface:

yeaaay i finally got my iMac back, happy happy. But the Windows boot seems to be empty. -_-
i think they erased the whole thing-- what is it with this ppls and erasing my stuffs.
well, i still thank them for fixing the keyboard.

The Point:

Soo, i was reinstalling all the games that i have installed--and its un-exquisitely disturbing. I installed Pizza Frenzy, Feeding Frenzy , other Frenzies, Diner Dash, Wedding Dash, other Dashes
and pumparampumparauuuum! my windows is full of games once again !

but. i still havent install the sims 2-- my favoritest game of all all all the other games. soo i try to install it, and surprisingly, nothing bad happened. soo i moved on to the next expension pack, and the next one and the next one, untill theres inly one left.

soo try to install the Sims 2: Apartment life. and suddenly. its jammed. the file is corrupted. so i quickly ejected the disc. and it got out safely-- i think.
well , i still got to play the sims 2, life without an apartment. what could possibly go wrong?

acorruptedfilethathasjammedthewholegamefromthefirsteditionofexpensionpackuntillthelast

and how to solve that problem?

reinstallsims2fromthebeginningandrunaroundincirclesscreaming"I HATE YOU DIMWICKED GAME"

now, im as "happy" as i could be :))) akfbahkdfbakdjfbkajbfjskbflkajfvlkuadf

Paramour

2009-01-08T16:14:00.007+07:00

Every time I that it past through
I get a shot right blue into a bolt of boom
Its not a problem of mine but its a problem I find
Living a life that I can't seem to leave behind
Theres no sense in telling me
The wisdom of a fool wont set you free
But thats the way that it goes
And its what i want to know
And every day my confusion grows

I feel dumb and I feel glued
I feel like I never should
Whenever I get this way, I just don't know what to say
Why cant we be ourselves like we were yesterday
I'm not sure what this could mean
I don't think you're what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if I be someone else
Then we'd never see just what were meant to be
Every time I see you falling
I tried to help you in anyway
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that I cant say

-by the unhappy frente

dimwitted but true. shaah -_-

Flashes of Memories

2009-01-07T20:10:00.003+07:00

as i said earlier, my brain got problems.
i saw manny things. i sorta freaked out when this things were true. (yes i've checked this events with the persons involved) my brain is driving me nuts, or i AM already nuts. idk.

somethings that i "remmember" :

Going Out
i was sitting in a car, the car was full with childrens (i think they're supposed to be my cousins) and i was sitting in the back. and we were singing "Uptown Girl". i heard that we're almost there. and i saw Mall Taman Angrek. it was rainy outside. and my aunt Amalia was driving.

Is this what i used to drink?
i was jumping in my bed. my mom suddenly called my name. a ran to her, and she was holding a bottle of milk with plastics all over it. and i started drinking it. and i saw a green canned cylinder (i guess thats the milkpowder) it has a bear and a box in it. the box has texts. it reads "Nutrilon"

A Gift From Mum
i was sitting on my bed (i dont know if im really sitting, or im just short) then mommy came home and gave me a pair of socks, a green minnie mouse socks with red ribbons. and the minnie was white with blue dress

more soon. verry verry soon.

Sudden Recall

2009-01-07T19:49:00.002+07:00

my brain is sorta jumpy the past few weeks. and it freaked me out. suddenly i'm seeing stuffs that i already see-- no, its not a dejavu. i mean like, a strip of memories that suddenly pass through my mind. and i just need to find out why
soo i checked out the INTERNET for answers.

and they said either i was under mental problems (which i'm not), or my brain is broken
(i hope not) , and they also said that i was supposed to go through therapy. UH! dimwick internet -_-

man .. a simple "your childhood is too happy, soo you remembered it in you unconscious mind" would be nice

after all, i knew that theres something wrong with my brain. -___-

Lost and Soon to be Forgotten

2009-01-07T19:22:00.003+07:00

with a limited amount of memory space, lost things are soon to be forgotten. well. i DONT want to forget this one!

soo it stared out when i was going to buy my computer. YIPPIE.
i got the one that i want. and i've worked soo hard to finally get it. Before i got this computer, i was using my mom's laptop--which is also partially mine because she's not using it anymore. And she was thrilled (surprisingly) to finally get her laptop back. blabla yadda yadda

one daay, she asked me if she could delete some files. "oh idk, like pictures, paintings, adobe projects.." and soo i said yes. i mean it though. files in the laptop aren't that important. but she ended up deleting every details that was in my account. songs. notes. soo i checked my msn conversation history, to make sure that it's not lost. my whole Junior High School life, is written on that files. friends. best friends. troubles and smiles. without THAT, i'll soon be forgetting those-- i forgot about things real quick, like the thing that i do last week, allready forgotten. ALL OF THOSE IMPORTANT THINGS will be gone POOFFED out from my mind.

yeaah i'm mourning over deleted stuffs about the past. pathethic but true.